Life is good here, at least this is what you would have gathered from all my previous blogs. All the little happenings and happier times are usually over the few weekends. Just want to share that most of the time, I am struggling with fear of not doing well, and have to "answer" to my bosses back at home. I woke up this morning in cold sweat cause I just had a dream of not being able to complete my test as I didn't know how to do it. Then the instructor told me cruelly that the rest had done extremely well, and I will be the last in the class....Sigh..This is not the first time I had dreamt that. I should not blame the management from having too high expectations from me, I myself would like to do well too. However, each time I have a test, there's always something that I do not know either because I did not study enough or had misinterpreted the question. I am starting to worry about being the last in the class, it would be such an embarrassment. 8 months had been long and torturous, struggling with my own faith in the midst of all my nightmares and fears. 44 days left, how I wish it can just pass by in a flash, and I'll be back in familiar Singapore. Could I just put everything as God's will? If I were a bird, I would have fly home.
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